ABOUT

“WHO” “AM” “I” ? I am not a self made person. There are hes shes and theys living inside me. My intention is to live wildly and lovingly, be(coming) dynamic self/ves, interacting and learning from the bodies and wisdoms of other self(ves). My intention is to incorporate and nurture the changing body. My intention is to use body, text, voice, music/sona, and the things I place on the body to create dialogue around the questions and concepts that feel urgent and keep me fascinated and engaged with the world. I hope to produce dialogue and to allow my body to honor the dialogues that run through it. I practice through and with the/my changing body (I try not to plan too much what it will do) in ways that feel consistent with how I would like to queer my body in and with the world. I write and use recorded and spoken texts and words written on papers and screens and out my voice; I want to communicate in ways that feel both nurturing and effective to me and to others; that also honors the way that I take up/choose not to take up space, the way that I listen and speak, and the ways that others listen and speak. I use the medium of music / sonics / song / voice, drawing from my own learned vocal tradition of repetition, memory, harmonizing and storytelling, knowledge carried in our throats–my very earliest memory of that knowledge being those rounds I sang with my mother as a child. Music / sonic waves are shapeshifters that invite modes of creativity in their presentation, in their improvisation and in the act and practice of their (re)presentation. I examine the various signifiers carried by clothing and costume on my/our bodies, nudity and the skin that holds our bodies. I experiment with the presentation of my body in various contexts–gallery, stage, bedroom, concert hall, squat. I am in constant dialogue with various selves, with the exploratory sexual body and the body that plays and presents on stage, with the writer body and the body at work in its many forms.

I produce electronic music and create multimedia and immersive performances with my polypartner Adrienne Teicher for our project HYENAZ. We are scavengers, shapeshifters and androgynous creatures whose soundscapes spring from the surplus and detritus of our cultural and consumerist material. We are determined to create the fabric of our music entirely from found sounds that relate closely to the conceptual content of the song, so that process relates to product. We are learning and conversing with the world around us, a world that is increasingly harder to survive in without amassing money. We are challenging ourselves to live with less and interact with the world more. We intend to create art that is consistent with our politics, not only in what we present but how we present it and the methodologies we use to create and present it. We are interested in using the occasions of our shows to interact with our audiences in an intentional way, specifically to understand the importance of being together physically in a room and what power can be harnessed by being in close proximity. We are interested in practicing touch and consent with other bodies in a room and understanding why touch is vital to our survival and to understanding our sense of empowered and respectful self-in-selves. We are currently presenting work we call Rupture, which is the period of transition from Critical Magic–a techno ritual based in consent, touch, sound, and movement to break physical and mental isolation and to spark discourse that is both critical and utopian–to an a/v series we call Foreign Bodies. Foreign Bodies examines the way that bodies are managed, controlled and manipulated and their expressions of resistance.

For many years I have been exploring, moving within, singing and writing about a concept that I call ALIVE:ness — the extent to which we understand others as alive to us and how this calls us into action or inaction. I have been investigating this idea relative to the contemporary digital context in which we live, one in which we are divided by geopolitical borders and encouraged to draw personal and moral boundaries between self and other. I have been writing about our tendency to count, measure and create hierarchies, to categorize ourselves and our experiences, to divide ourselves. It is my intention to queer my identity in the world, to see myself as similarly different with all bodies in the world. I sing, create music, move and incorporate my texts into a multimedia project with acclaimed guitarist Jaco Bertacco aka Tide of Sound, that we call Mad Kate | the Tide. I am given the opportunity to explore many genders and identities in a multimedia, hyperlinked and textual approach to live and recorded musical performance.

My performative, artistic selves and my sexual selves are deeply integrated; these are all examinations and explorations of my body in various contexts that I understand as deeply linked between sex, work, performance and art. My work as a performer is in constant dialogue with the various ways that I practice sex(uality), all of which I see as valuable and similarly different (partnered, paid, casual, anonymous, etcetera). There is deep power and wisdom available to us in the playfulness of sexual encounters and in learning about our desires and fears; this is just one of the reasons I work to destigmatize sex work and discussions around sex in  general. I believe that like performative play, sexual play offers us the possibility of imagining ourselves and our partners as differently bodied, it can undo deeply held assumptions about borders between bodies and hierarchies between bodies. Investigating those power dynamics and playfully imagining ourselves as more similar than different has far reaching implications for how we interact with the world and take on responsibility for each other. These are all themes which are investigated in my life’s questions, brought into every realm of my artistic and sexual personas.

I am fascinated with how my poly-queer-identities dialogue with my sense of home, a positioning I began to describe as poly-home-full, where home becomes multi-locational and grounded in relation. I am linking these ever-widening senses of home(s) to how I interact with the world as performer, as sex worker, as parent, as activist, as advocate. It is a decentralized sense of home that is tethered to people and energy. I am investigating home as a site of a performance, a stage/perspective from which we speak. Our first home is our skin; inside our skin we perform the labour of care, the expression of our art, of our passion, of our representations of these. Homes reverberate outwards from our skin to our clothes to our communities at large. Widely speaking we live in a violent home, we live in a structure of violence in which we all play a role in consenting to the structure, even as we are actively trying to tear it down. I am trying in some small ways to minimize my waste and divest from the cycle of consumption by touring and traveling sustainably (flying as seldom as possible and riding my bike as much as possible), refusing the perpetual choice of consumption (finding and resourcing things), making better choices around what I eat, and by sharing a large collection of costumes, masks, wigs, jewelry, fabrics, and inventive props with fellow artists so that we can re-use, up-cycle, and share our creations. Anyone can come by and take a look inside Carni Closet, located in the back of the Berlin boutique, EXIT.

I got my MFA in Writing and Consciousness from the New College of California and a BA in Peace and Conflict Studies with an emphasis in Gender and Sustainable Development from the University of California, Berkeley. I loved school and I love learning. But I never wanted to just study other bodies so I had to take my body out of the academy and experiment through and with it. I want to share my writing and especially engage with my readers. I try to blog regularly in my LOVE LETTERS and I am occasionally published in other places. There will never be enough time to explore all the different genders I would like to inhabit. But in each of the personas I explore, the through-line has been my intellectual and artistic interest in the politics of borders–both between bodies and within bodies. This pursuit has manifested itself in many forms–whether it be interviewing women who live in rural farming cooperatives in Nicaragua and Haiti; advocacy of immigrants and political asylum seekers in the Bay Area; teaching creative writing inside the San Francisco Women’s Jail; sex / work / performance /art; critical and creative writing; or diving off the stage into a crowd of rowdy pogo punks while singing with my band.